Beauty,Life,Everything me..

hello everyone how r ya?me im not 2 shabby xcept 4 tha fact that spring break is offically over and i didnt see not one of my friends!
it seems that since ppl have gone away for college i dont have a single "real"friend!and yes i know it was my decision 2 stay back and not go away 2 skool but nstead stay here and do community college..i sumtimes i guess i just feel sorta alone..im tellin ya if it wasnt 4 my big sis i dnt think i would ever have any fun or sumone 2 talk 2..i dont wanna b bitter 2 anyonw but i guess im just a little sad..i can pretend all i want that iam ok but at tha end of tha day ima lil lonely..
maybe thats why ive opped 2 not ever get 2 close 2 anyone or feel dependant upon sumone bcuz i know wut eventually happenes....
so maybe thats wut im rechin out 4..maybe im reachin pit 4 a piece of myself that i ddint kno i was missin until now....
college life..dont be like and stay behind otherwise ull just be left n tha crowd..un-noticed..forgotten...
i guess u can say im usin this time 2 find myself..who i really am as a person...and im realisin that maybe i dont need them..as long as i have my family and God on my side ill b ok without them..i mean how hard is it 2 pick up a phone n check in with sumone..its not brain surgery..its called being a friend....but still i get lonely every now and then....
well til'next time..

hello everyone!
so today my lil nephew turned 2 yay everyone clap!so 2 celebrate everyone went out 2 eat at apple bes(hes havin a bday party this wknd!)anyway so b4 we could even make it there my mother starts gettin on my nerves!i mean it wasnt even like anything serious its just that i hold so much in that wen tha littlest thing pisses me off i just wanna blow up o yell.so im trynin 2 keep my cool n she just keeps botherin me so of course im gona have sumthin smart 2 say n she has tha nerve 2 tell me that im gettin on her nerves!wut...wait..old up a sec..aint u been tha 1 messin with me since u got home now all of a sudden im gettin on yo nerves back that up a sec b4 she tart trippin again..anyways someone says sumthin 2 her n shes like if she keep actin like this she wont get no bday party next wk..im like wutever bump all that i aint want tha last 3 u threw me i just showed up...party or no party it doesnt really matter 2 me bcuz everyone who knows me know that i stay 2 myself becuz its peaceful and i dont have 2 worry about sum1 naggin at me or idk wut my problem is im just kinda dealin with alot and its like noone can see that sumthings off with me....its like im missin a huge part of me and i dont kno wut that part is..maybe if i can figure out wut that part is then mayb i wont b so quick 2 snap at ppl over tha dumbest things
anyways this house is freakin huge and tese kids cum follow me all tha way down stairs n2 tha computer room!...maybe thats wut my problem is i need time and space for me.....
happy bday lil nephew i love you very much!

hello everyone
guess wut iam officially back!!!
sorry bout tha delayed postings but u kno how it is with movin u gotta get settled n wut not..anyways...as usual i hope all is well with u guyz!
so wut 2 talk about...hmm...lets see..well its tha month of lovin..yes uve guessed it valentines day..so guyz go out n get ur gurls somethin special n ladies make sure 2 look xtra nice 4 ya man...but dnt give em tha whole package show em a lil tease...make em work 4 it u gotta gurl!
i know this week me n my sister r gonna go over 2 priscillas(i kno i messed that up they needa get a normal name lol)..tha only thing is im goin 2 a sex store n wont have ne1 2 show off my things with :(..o well i can look cute all by myself..maybe next yr ill have my valentine cuz as we all kno tha guy or should i say guyz ive talkin 2 have been major lame so whomp whomp jokes on u!
so anyways off of that subject cuz im jealous of every1 whose goin out that day while im stuck babysittin so F yall lol naw im just jokin i think love is a bea-utiful thing : )
now on 2 2day..2day my uncle whom i havent seen since his weddin back n aug came over 2 visit..it was a nice visit...we all laughed n joked around 4 bout 2 hrs n i can honestly say that i enjoyed my self..cuz yall kno i be tryin 2 stay far away from sum of my fam members cuz i dnt need all that drama!
we also talked bout goin outta town this summer..that should be REALLY n i mean really nterestin cuz its very unusual of my fam 2 get 2gether n actually do sumthin as awhole..u know like tha brady bunch or sum shit lol...im lookin forword 2 seein how long we can keep this front up like everythings everythings knowin half tha time we dnt like eachotha so i will def keep yall posted with that lol...well ima get up outta here n go check sumotha stuff out...ill try n post 2mrw but yall kno me i b a lil lazy at times lol
xoxo tiff!